2010 in stuff I did.

January: I am employable. After 15 months of wondering what to do with myself, I finally found myself to be capable of administration. Excellent discovery. I am not smoking.

February: I am content. I draw, paint, cook, eat drink and am merry. I like life.

March: I am experimenting. I lost my hair, I painted my nails, Islands, Dragons, Sunshine. I drew.

April: I am tired. I can't do everything. I can't work full time, part time and relief. I gave up on youth club work.

May: I am restless. I need to move. I applied for another job. We went to Devon, I thought about giving up.

June: I am moving. I got the job, friends moved away, I turned another year older, and we got engaged.

July: I am travelling, Oxford, Home, Home, I saw my family, I found my wedding dress, but I wont know it yet.

August: I am exhausted. We moved house, I became ill. I am stress. I need sleep. I am cross.

September: I am involved. We're planning a wedding. I'm working late. Work is less important, but still we take a trip to forget. I take on a new challenge.

October: I am celebrating. I am the hen. I see old friends and new and am recharged, defiant. This month lasts forever. I am upbeat.

November. I changed my mind. I am in blue. I am married. I am on honeymoon, I changed my mind. I am back to reality. I am contemplative. I missed a boat. I changed my mind.

December. I am waiting. I am impatient. I am home. I am away. I am wondering where I will go next. I am wondering where I am supposed to be.

Handle bars, and then I let go, let go for anyone
Take me in, and throw out my heart and get a new one

Next thing we're touching
You look at me it's like you hit me with lightning


Oh, everybody's starry-eyed
And everybody goes
Oh, everybody's starry-eyed


So we burst into colours, colours and carousels,
Fall head first like paper planes in playground games

Next thing we're touching
You look at me it's like you hit me with lightning

thought

I would be lying if I said I was a different person now. I am the same person. I would do it all again. - Emily Gould

as if this needs any explanation...

republic, summertime, shopping, happy

first, the dress, which is gorgeous. shame there's no where to wear it!!
bit dull but i liked, i wanna try out the whole frills thing at some point
very cute bag, i love it already, very much.
last time i went with the checks, i lost out in a big way, they just weren't rly me... so nothing can really explain why i want this ugly top, i just do.

beach

I rly want to go to the beach soon, watch this space!!!

things that make me smile

today i went to work (at 3pm lol, i love my job) and the sun was shining, and lily allen was on the rad. her song 'smile' made my summer last year!

so i thought i would make a list of things that make me smile - here goes:

1. Sunshine - i love the summer, it is by far the best season ever and I CANT WAIT for this summer.
2. Late nights, warmth and light til late - make the day so much longer! Again, I love.
3. Summer songs - (there is a theme going on here) but estelle & kanye west's new song, american boy is cool in a summertime way (i'msure i will be really annoyed by it in a couple weeks but meh.. LDN and Smile are also groovy summer choons and this time of year i am SO GLAD i'm not listening to the wrong radio station.
4. Bright colours - green, yellow, blue, orange, pink - u name it and i love it.
5. BBQs - as a veggie i love BBQs as much as the next fish.. i just always has to bring my own stuffs! bah... but i LOVE too.
6. Driving... to THE BEACH or anywhere for that matter, bovverd not.
7. Summer hols - school hols mean much more work for me, and i love my work.
8. Smoking.. aaah i love smoking. Bad, so limited.
9. Wrapping all my food up in tortillas. I don't know what i did before I discovered this awesomeness.
10. Pretty things, and shopping. Erk, and i have got to number 10 without mentioning RUM. I will have to dedicate a post to it 2muro or something. :)