so i am not working this week due to stupid backache from my hectic life of being unemployed and having no life.
last week, to distract myself from the pain of mondays, before americans wake up and write things i can be bothered to read, i got myself an exercise ball. new exercise, new routine, new job, new friends at work, new yoofs to worry about lalala nice.
it arrived yesterday, before the back pain of doom cased an impromptu trip to a&e and today, since i am off work in pain etc, i am pumping it up.
now, contrary to my own opinion of myself (complicated) i really like exercise, i just have crappy memories of a lot of it. i had some good fun at uni, loved circuit training and old skool sweat, riding my bike around and chopping up logs... i go on too much
but anyway, it's kinda important for me to have fun with stuff and not to get wrapped up in weight loss and diets and hyper exercise, i get obsessive, then ill and it sucks.
this exercise ball says 'lighter life' on it. it's only small, but it's there, just a reminder that people to exercise to be lighter. i dont ever wanna think about that, i wanna do exercise to feel better, and i don't wanna keep making that connection that lighter = happier = better cuz as i say, its not good for me. but i'm still a bit meeh about it.
#071 – deadpan
3 hours ago